Monday, June 14, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Despite of being in front of the big lens all the time , and performing in front of thousands of people , I must admit , I have this syndrome called low-of-self-esteem which involves beliefs about ability & future performance .
Always feel like , I am not good enough for anybody . I am not beautiful , not that brilliant as well . You know , trying so hard to impress everybody & it ends up , nothing .
Self-confidence . My perception of myself have a large impact on the way others perceive me . All this while I've been pretending that I am not scared of losing anybody (exceptional for Zharif & Zahira) . Well I lied .
Why would I make so many friends at the first place ? Friends are like petrol station . You won't stop by unless you wanna fill your tank or you wanna have some coffee before continuing your journey . Okay you won't understand this . Skip this !
I wish I can have that beautiful fair skin complexion like Katy Perry .
And as smart as this guy .
Dance as well as Ciara .
I'LL BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE !
But sadly , Im just the typical , ordinary , girl-next-door kinda girl .
I am just , BELLA .
Behind the balloon is me , seriously .
Previewing the older post of mine , I missed Elly , Yaya , Ayane , Anis , Dora , Aten , and oh so much more .
Reunion pleaseeeee?
Blog after blog after blog , here I am again .
I've deleted my old blog due to some reasons which I will not tell you here .
So to my new followers , you are welcome here .
For a warm start , you can call me Bella . I am going to reach 19 this coming November .
I am a mother of 3 , I own a castle somewhere in Spain , I have a husband , a boyfriend , scandals etc etc . Okay stop there !
I have no boyfriend , the special one . I know I am lame for not having one .
I ♥ :
1) eating
2) vintage
3) dancing
4) the dooodolls
5) romedies ( stands for romantic comedies )
seriously dude you gotta watch this !
6) purple , brown , err more purple ?
7) cats , especially the fat one !
8) walking in the rain .
9) caramel frappucino *mouth-dropped*
10) last but not least , i love my brother & sister . They mean the world to me , even more !
Well I think this is it . A good start from me , for you guys to know me .
I am better than your ex & I am better than your next !
=D