Despite of being in front of the big lens all the time , and performing in front of thousands of people , I must admit , I have this syndrome called low-of-self-esteem which involves beliefs about ability & future performance .
Always feel like , I am not good enough for anybody . I am not beautiful , not that brilliant as well . You know , trying so hard to impress everybody & it ends up , nothing .
Self-confidence . My perception of myself have a large impact on the way others perceive me . All this while I've been pretending that I am not scared of losing anybody (exceptional for Zharif & Zahira) . Well I lied .
Why would I make so many friends at the first place ? Friends are like petrol station . You won't stop by unless you wanna fill your tank or you wanna have some coffee before continuing your journey . Okay you won't understand this . Skip this !
I wish I can have that beautiful fair skin complexion like Katy Perry .
And as smart as this guy .
Dance as well as Ciara .
I'LL BE THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE !
But sadly , Im just the typical , ordinary , girl-next-door kinda girl .
I am just , BELLA .
Behind the balloon is me , seriously .
Previewing the older post of mine , I missed Elly , Yaya , Ayane , Anis , Dora , Aten , and oh so much more .
Reunion pleaseeeee?
Dear Bella, feeling low self esteem is natural part of life. it sucks though. but you cannot layan the feeling. you must fight your fears. that is what your low self esteem is about, its about fear. so dont be afraid. love yourself. love is the key. love your self.
ReplyDeleteOh thank you so much! :D
ReplyDeleteyeke? the way bella describe tuh mcm bkn psl bella jew, as if you're telling us another person yg x cntik la x pndai la x itu la x ini la...but the bella that i know is totally the opposite way..hmm, perhaps aizat x kenal bella deeply lgi kot.. =P
ReplyDeleteayat last tue, just nice~
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